a week, and if I'd done anything wrong. He said no and flew out xnxx japan of the room. That was xnxxx at seven.. I haven't seen him xnxx mom since then. And plus I smashed the shit out of the picture he keeps on his nighttable." "Does he know about that?" "Nope. I'm waiting for him to get home so I can offer him my xnxx india castrated balls on japan xnxx a plate... see if that is reparation enough for my stupidity." A soft sigh, and I hear him move, presumably to another position on his xnxx korea bed. "Why did you break it?" "Why do you think? He left the room looking like I'd killed his mother or something, and I've never seen him do that before. I felt like xnxx bokep shit... and his damn room was upsetting the hell out of japanese xnxx me... everything in it being so.... _Miah_... and I saw that picture and it made me so mad... so I smashed it to peices. Which I left there because I can't stand to go back in. So I fucked up again." I listen with closed eyes as Bredan struggles himself into a seated position. "You're xmxx too emotional, Shae. Too quick to passion... all the kinds of passion." I xnxx anime xnxx gay xxnx.com pass a hand over my eyes. "Yeah.. the two worse kinds of passion, xnxx india too." Brendan chuckles slightly, yawning as he speaks. "No, not at all. You just let them overtake you at the wrong times, that's all. From xnxx movies the rumours I've heard, you've got quite the skillful way of letting xnnn passion overcome you in the sack." I flush and don't say wwwxnxx anything to that at all. "But anyways," he continues somberly, "Jere knows you better than anyone, a fact that I won't soon let him forget. It's also a fact that confuses the hell out of him, but never mind that. He won't let the picture thing get xxnn to him.. he'll understand." "Why does it confuse him?" I ask. "And no, he won't understand. He'll get back and see the peices, and think that I hate him. Which is completely wrong..." I hear Brendan get out of bed and xnxx sex videos open his door. "It confuses xxnn him because you don't let anyone get as close to you as you've let him. Not even me. porno xnxx He doesn't understand what he did to gain that trust. And he xnxx.com won't think that you hate him... at xxnx xnxx stories least, not deep down he won't. Superficially, for a while, he might, but not completely." I frown into my pillow. "'Cause he's Miah," I say, not bothering to say anything on the last remark. Brendan chuckles softly, and I hear a water tap being turned on. "Right. Which should say xnx so much to him, coming from someone like you... but he's a rather self-doubting boy." "Someone like me," I xnxx gay scoff, frowning deeper. "What the hell is that." "Someone like you... a walled-up person with the face and personality of an angel." I roll xnxx teen my eyes. "An extremely angry angel, if you want to put it in such sickening terms." Brendan laughs videos xnxx quietly. "Oh yes. Very angry... angry xnxx asia at the world, but especially at his own beauty." Uncomfortably, I sigh at him. xnxx 2020 "I didn't know you thought about me so much, Brendan." He sighs back. "I xnxx hot think alot about everyone I meet. But you are just such a damn enigma sometimes... I get a headache trying to xnxx hot figure you out. And besides... that angel stuff was quoted from Jere. I think it is a very astute assessment." I stay silent, not wanting to think about that. He calls me an angel... and now he's going to get xnxx video back to his room and see the spoils of the so-called angel... "But anyways. I think you should go and xnxx sex video clean up the mess you left in his room. And when he gets back, tell him." I flinch and shy away from that thought. "Ugh," I say hopelessly. I can almost hear Brendan shrug. "Hey. You broke it. You clean it up. It's better than leaving it for him to cut his fingers on." I nod slowly and sigh. "Okay." "Okay. 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I'll pay to have it cleaned." He shakes his head slowly phim xnxx and moves towards me, taking the bag from my unresisting fingers and letting it rest on the bed where he doesn't pay anymore attention to it. He xnnx takes my hand into www.xnxx.com his own, where he turns it slightly, gaging the depth of the wound. I keep my eyes on the floor, suddenly not very able to deal with his presence right now. "Why?" he asks, his voice still in the same light, guarded tone, his fingers warm against my cold, bloody ones. I realize he isn't talking xnxx india about me paying to clean the www.xnxx.com carpet, and I lift one shoulder in a tiny shrug. "Would you believe me if I said I didn't know?" I can feel his gaze flicker to touch upon my closed eyes and xnxx sex video then drop back down. Softly: "I guess I'll have to." "I'm sorry," I say, trying to keep my voice steady. "I'll get you a new frame, and you can have the copy of the picture that I desi xnxx have." He begins to lead me out into the xnxx korea livingroom silently, heading towards the sink. "No, it's okay." His voice is very uncomprimising as he xnxx teen says this, and I can't help but feel a stab of pain shoot through my heart. "But it was your favourite picture," I say desperately. "Shae, don't worry about it." I hear anger here, and I shut up. As he turns on the telugu xnxx water in the sink, I notice for the first time the bandages on his knuckles. Frowning worriedly, I try to understand where he would have gotten them, and I feel my heart sink as the knowledge that he didn't even tell me about them assails me. Things are really falling apart, xxx xnxx I tell myself bitterly, and bite xnxx tv my tongue deeply as he sticks my hand under the water. "This is going to hurt, but stay still," he says, his voice expressionless. So I nod xnxx desi and stay silent. 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He watches me xnxx sex for a moment and then sits down next to me, leaning on the porno xnxx table and regarding me with dark, honest eyes. "Did he tell you why he did it?" I blink at him and look at him with the most alert gaze I've been able to muster up for the past three days. "I didn't know you knew about it." He sighs and twirls a single dredlock around one skinny finger. "He called me indian xnxx and told me about it. He xnxx xnxx felt that bad." I shrug. "Please don't try and make excuses for him." Brendan shakes his head. "I'm not, Jere. I'm just telling you what I know." I sigh, and push my bowl away. "So why did he, then?" Brendan shrugs. "I don't know.. that's why I was asking you." "You didn't tell him that we saw him and Jamie, did you?" He shakes his head firmly. "Hell no. That, most likely, would have made things a lot worse." I sigh and nod, xnxx mom gazing down at the table. 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